The cloud is lifting. Slowly. And I’m sure there will be some more dips in the roller coaster eventually, but for now, I’m counting my blessings. And there are so, so many. I’ve been showered with love. The outpouring of supportive, wonderful comments from YOU. I’ve gotten care packages and cards and I am buried under emails of support and love. It’s a wonderful problem to have. And it has lifted my spirits enormously. Internet friends are real friends and they’ve sent me makeup, magazines, booze, and tons of chocolate in the mail.
A week ago I had the d&c procedure. It was like taking a nap and the recovery has been a breeze. I mean, I still wish I was getting a baby instead, of course, but I am thankful that at least the physical aspect has been easy.
I didn’t want to end this month on a sad note when I’m starting to feel better. Don’t get me wrong, pregnancy announcements still sting (which I hate. I do not want to be that person…not being on social media for the month of May might be good in this aspect.), but I haven’t cried at all in a few days, so I feel less…heavy.
The sun has been shining, I went running for the first time in a month, and we’ve been spending a lot of time outside.
And also inside, watching How I Met Your Mother, doing jigsaw puzzles, and drinking Diet Coke (I bought a case of it for the first time in my life. This miscarriage has led me to drinking.)
Here are some scenes from the last few days:
I am hopeful that May will be lighter than April. Last May was so wonderful. I’m hoping this May will follow suit as I take a step away from social media for 31 days.
Internet friends are real friends :)
I’m glad you are feeling lighter- and all those beautiful pictures are reminders of the many wonderful things you have. I can’t remember last May- you don’t step away from blogging the whole month, right? haha.
Last year I didn’t blog, but I think I might this year – it’s just SO different to compose a post vs. shoot off a quick tweet! :)
Grief is not linear, that’s for sure. Though, the pain does hopefully lessen over time. I’m glad to see you’re feeling better – physically and emotionally. I’m sure there will be days when grief surprises you again, but to recognize the beautiful days and your beautiful family along the way is a gift. Cheers to you for taking a break from social media in May!
Oh my word, Gabe is so precious! I say this all the time, but he’s growing up to be such a handsome little boy! He got the absolute best parts of both you and Mike. :)
Here’s to sunny skies, warm breezes and lots of laughter. It’s coming – and it will be amazing. Lots of love to you.
I’m so glad you are healing and feeling better.
I’ll miss you on Twitter but I wish you a peaceful May!
xoxo
Oh, Gabe is so precious. Such great photos. I’ll miss you on Twitter! But maybe you can come on gchat from time to time so I’m not completely deprived. Just saying.
So happy to hear you’re slowly feeling a little better…. you can’t really expect to be completely fine after only one week, but I think it’s fantastic that people have shown you so much love. Internet friends ARE real friends!
P.S. I’d love to send you something in the mail… if you would email me your address :)
so glad you are being covered in love and wonderful things, as you should.
also, love these pictures but when did Gabe get SO BIG!?! seriously he’s such a little boy now, not even a toddler, it’s crazy. and he’s still just so precious.
Thinking of you, Ashley, & your sweet family. Love these pictures & your outlook on life. <3
I’m glad you’re starting to heal while still acknowledging there might be hard days ahead. I think of you daily and send up a prayer for lightness, so it warms my heart to see you’re feeling less “heavy.”
Oh, and those bubble-blowing pictures? Melt!
Your boys are gorgeous. Love your eye behind the camera.
xo